2 months down

I've made it 2 months being single.
I am pretty positive that is some sort of record for me!

No, I'm not divorced yet.
But for basic purposes, I'm single.

At first it was really hard.
Really really really hard.
Full out struggle for me.

Guys from my past came out of the woodwork with a quickness.
That was a HUGE mistake. oopsie

It took me a little bit to realize the problem.
It happened with Kevin, I went backwards.
If it didn't work the first time, it won't work the second time.
I need new meat. Not old meat! DUH

July 4th I met someone.
& it was good because neither of us wanted a relationship.
But, of course, I am a female and got attached.
Wait. Not attached. More like sucked in without my consent.
One of those too good to be true things.

More to the point, I usually only see him once a week.
And I'm going to work on making that be enough.
But he does make it extremely hard.
As soon as I'm almost over him,
he does something that sucks me back in.
Like he is psychic or some shit.
I am not kidding, he does it every time.

I was on a mission to find a man, but not anymore.
No more looking. No more searching.
The fucker is gonna have to find me.
I'm sick of working for it. I want it to find me.

I am having way too much fun doing what I want.
When I want. How I want.
It's quite exhilarating.